The past few days in a forum I frequent, there have been several debates on bashing religion. Actually, all of the threads starts out as people asking for others not to bash religion. Simple enough, right? Well, it has turned nasty is two different threads. Its usually the same people causing the trouble. None of them read this site (except Logan, and no, your not the trouble maker)...here are my views.
You can worship [insert deity] all you wish. As long as your belief does not harm me, anyone else, or you try to push your belief on me, you are free to keep it.
Dont blame a whole group for one small radical portions actions. If radical catholics blow up an abortion clinic, everyone baptised catholic is not to blame.
If you want yell at someone with reason, do it privatly. If not, dont do it at all.
I do not accept rudeness from anyone.
I do not fit into mainstream religious denominations, but I call myself a Christain. Got a problem with me? Fine, tell me about it privatly and ill brush it off. Got a problem with my religion as a whole? Keep it to yourself because everything about that religion may not apply to me.
Private messages are just that, private. Keep them that way.
Now for my day. I have come to the serious conclusion...I have a phobia of dentists...
For the past 3 years, I have been scared to death of dentists. Everytime I go, I would come home with something that needed to be fixed and it usually involved needles. I would cry everytime I went. I cried today because I have 3 small cavities. I was told when I was little (8) that I had horrible teeth and I shouldnt drink soda and all of this crap...and I got a cavity. However, when I was 8, I was not allowed soda, orange juice, lemonaid, or anything with specific types of acid in it. So that was not the problem. I had the tooth fixed, and the dentist gave me laughing gas. I remember it smelled like bubble gum, and I remember feeling like I was floating. Then I told the dentist I didnt feel good. He kept working and I ended up throwing up with a drill in my mouth.
Braces wasnt a problem...except my jaw. Which had to be repositioned. Not pleasent...but I didnt feel a thing. Then after the braces came off...the cavities started. Ive had 8 since I was 13. That is including the 3 I have now. The dentist tried to help me with fear...it never did.
And today was no exception.
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The Eskimo on 01.31.05 @ 11:14 PM EST
30/1/05
Alrighty, I have a new tracker on the left hand side. The other one did not give me very good stats for the page, and did not exclude IP's (I like to take off my own so I am not counted). And this one gives very good information...I would even buy the invisable one if it wasnt a monthly price, but it isnt....so, no invisible tracker. However, there is one bad part. It starts at 0. I currently have had over 2000 hits in the past few months. Anyway, I hope this one turns out better.
And now...onto the movies. Its going to be my last one of the month. Million Dollar Baby, here I come.
You Are 19 Years Old
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
Heres a survey, what I bolded applied to me, and I added one at the end.
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The Eskimo on 01.29.05 @ 09:35 PM EST
29/1/05
I dedicate this layout to my mother, who said that my downfall in life will be my attitude. She told me to mark her words, mother, here on this day of January 29th, 2005, your words are marked. Ill look back in 10 years and we will see how it all turned out.
22/1/05
My computer was offically totaled. That said, Im looking for my new computer. My parents, and boyfriend, dont like the idea of a mac. I do...I think. Not 100% sure. But I have the idea for my future computer in mind, its a HP notebook...again.
However, Im going to do away with alot of the included programs that have irked me over the years. Microsoft Works for example...is so annoying (this isnt MS word, or excel..), all those little games included? Meh, gone. Im going to wipe that computer of everything except the windows operating system and put what I want on there. Ive found some good sites with good programs.
First of all, OpenSource CD. It has many programs I already use, and several that sound a whole lot more efficent than the ones I do have. It sounds good.
My second goal is to finally figure out how to use a theme manager program like WindowBlinds which I have never figured out how to use before.
Third, no Kazaa or freaky shareware programs except for Filetopia which I have used for like 2 years, and its a good program, with no spyware or adware.
Thirdly...im not sure what I am going to do about it...but I want to ditch trillian. Never ever will I download the following programs or do any of these things:
RealPlayer
AOL Instant Messager
Yahoo Instant Messanger
Any FTP programs besides Filezilla
Any browser besides Mozilla/Firefox
No html editors besides Dreamweaver and Notepad(2)
No photo editors except for Paint Shop Pro (sorry Firegraphic, you were good...just ate my RAM up so fast...)
And now I have to go cause Im using my fathers computer...and I have none!
17/1/05
I renewed this domain name for another year, and I will renew my other one soon also. So that at least is something off my mind. I also joined another stock photo community: Morgue File. Although it doesnt pay like istock or others, I do get comments on what I do, which I appreciate. I would post my photos all here, but they are attached to my name so ill just say they are pretty good photos. I tried to create a gallery with this site, but unfortually my host has something up with the chmoding cgi scripts and php, so gallery will not work.
People said they like the site, and the design is very pretty. The scrolling, however, everyone hates. Ill look into a new scrolling system tomorrow that does not involve this method. Transparent sroll bars anyone? Now...no JPG magazine. *sniff*
17/1/05
This post is just going to be a bit...ranty. Richard, if you are reading this, please respect my privacy and leave. I post here my private thoughts to people I dont care about their opinion of me (mostly anyway), but I care about yours and my privacy, so please, leave.
Remember I wanted to buy JPG Magazine? Well, I needed like a 1.50 in my paypal account. Well, paypal decided to take my monthly hosting payment out of my paypal account, and not from the credit card. So guess who now cant get her magazine? Yes, thats right, me.
Then the blogging scholarship essay. I reread the guidelines and it said you have to be enrolled in college/university. Well, im not. So I wanted to ask a friend to send in the essay, and he could get credit for it. I didnt mind it. Well, needless to say, it didnt happen. Sorry Noah, the interview was worthless. Maybe ill post the essay here later. Well, technically, Im accepted and paid deposit for univeristy...wonders if I am enrolled...
Though, good stuff did happen today. I got one...nope...TWO new cats. BJ (for Boose Junior) and Sherbert. BJ is a b/w tuxedo cat and Sherbert is your standard orange shorthair lion. We adopted them from petco which got them from the shelter. Their owners didnt want them anymore. It was very sad. I saw BJ when computer shopping yesterday and liked him. Then we went again today, this time with my mother, and saw them. When we went to pet BJ, Sherbert came out of the cage they share and jumped up into my lap. I couldnt help it, I wanted him. He is so loving. Needless to say, we got both of them.
Now, my cat of 6 or 7 years...is not happy. She is actually downright pissed off at everyone. Shes hiding in my room. But she will get used to them soon. And...Robin williams got a nice award from the golden globes, he deserves it. I really like robin williams as an entertainer. And I will do what I did last year and the year before that...I will post quotes on the oscars.
Thats enough for now. I guess people didnt like my design.
16/1/05
As you can obviously see, I spent my saturday night designing. I have used my own photography in other peoples sites, as well as my own. I really like this picture. Shame, it was rejected from istockphoto. But I think it served this purpose very well. Nice and mysterious. Its a nice foggy road on a cold janurary morning. Mmm, very nice.
Like the layout? Anyone? PS: Sorry if the scrolling is irratating. I wanted a way to scroll and I hate bars.
Things have gotten a little bit better over the past few days. Shannon is still ill, but she had a good day yesterday. She was out playing with the ball and jumping around and such, so that is good.
My father came home, and I was dreading it, but its not to bad. He is very happy to be back home and I dont blame him. School is quite dull this semester. The only thing I really have going for me is the drama play, which is fun. The actual drama class is a bore and I would snooze, but I dont want to be offending.
Also, I have a new consideration for my computer replacement. The
Mac Mini although, I prefer to call it the MiniMac. It is a desktop and that is a drawback. Apple does offer education discounts, so I will take that into consideration. Also, my other two peeves for the mac are: a) I cannot get paint shop pro on a mac, I would have to finally use photoshop solely. I dont like being tied to one or the other. and b) its a desktop. My two click mouse problem is solved, since it will take PC mice. I cant stand the one click mouse. But it is nice, and I am putting it on my list of contenders.
I tried to buy
JPG Magazine's first issue but unfortually I only have 20.56 cents in my paypal account. I forgot I had to add in shipping which is a buck fifty. But I am going to get it when I sell something off ebay or something of the like. I feel like buying something on my own, without asking anyone. And I will, just when I get the money to!
And since Im in such a talkative mood...im going to make this an extended entry.
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The Eskimo on 01.13.05 @ 04:43 PM EST
12/1/05
Its been a bad past few days. Well, first of all. I created another blog. Will be private, no one from here will see it and I dont care if anyone else sees it anyway. I am considering closing down FEnet. Not to many people read my little thoughts on life.
My 12 year old german shepard dog was diagnosed with inoperable bladder cancer. The vets said she would have a few months of quality life at most. Its very sad for all of us. She is like a sister/child to me. I remember when she used to be able to sleep in my bed, but she grew out of that. For now, we just give her pain medicine and her favorite food everyday.
My father returned from being deployed by the military. Im glad hes back, but its alot to get used to again.
My computer/internet is dead. Im posting this because for some reason its working on my fathers computer for the time being. It doesnt work anywhere else. I will have to get it fixed tomorrow. And my poor computer has been standing on its last leg for a while. I cant move any of my files to my external drive, and the LCD monitor is starting to get spots. Not good.
I missed school today because I stayed up so late when getting my father. But it was good to sleep in. A whole bunch of other smaller things have just been peeving me the last few days. I have to go to the dentist to get a tooth fixed. I hate the dentist more than anything. I have to get a bunch of shots to go to college, I hate the doctors second most. My mothers best friends husband killed himself. He had always been creepy to me...but its sad I know someone who committed suicide. Just an icky few days, and hopefully it gets better soon.
9/1/05
Previous entry deleted because my blog is being watched by people who shalt not be named.
1/1/05
I had every intention this year to do a nice webpage with all the highlights of the year with the world, and highlights of my life in the world. But my computer died and I lost the html for it and I didnt redo it. So I will just list what I can recall (this is last minute people) what has happened this year.
I started my senior year of high school in a new school in a new state.
I moved to South Carolina a day after I got out of the hospital for a pretty bad head bump which I had been in the hospital for 6 days previous.
My father was shipped overseas for 4 months, alot less than alot of other people.
I was accepted into a private all girls school, with 4 years of tuition, room, and board paid for.
I decided I would not ever go there because its just not the right school.
I gained a really wonderful friend, and kept him close until the day I had to leave him.
I have hope to go to a university in canada.
I celebrated three years with my boyfriend.
I had my first paying job where I had to show up on time or be fired.
I realized I made more money volunteering the previous summer than I made this summer.
I received one of three lead roles in the school play, and I have never been in a high school (or middle school) play production.
I was paid for a photo for the first time.
I established felloweskimo.net and created everything on it myself (exception of GM).
I wrote an artical published in high school newspaper...and took over 600 photographs for said newspaper, she hated it.
Resolutions:
Keep track of every movie I watch this year.
Not nessessarly to be accomplished this year, watch IMDB top 100 movies.
